The importance of finding PEACE...

As most of you already know I have struggled with how I was treated by Josh's family.  I could never understand why they were so rude to me.  Last night after small groups at Church one of the woman came up to me and explained that she had been following my progress and praying for me with the whole Josh passing.  During the conversation it became clear to both of us that I had been struggling with forgiving and letting go or the using the ultimate word of finding PEACE.  This past couple of weeks I had been praying that the Lord would help me find peace in the situation and allow me to move past the hurt I felt.  God is working and little by little I am starting to see the importance of the peace.  It can haunt you, destroy relationships and at time block a person from moving forward.  It is kinda interesting how this past few weeks at weekly Bible Study with the Madison staff the topic has also been on peace.  I feel God is telling me something.  Please continue to pray as I am not perfect but I am working on it.

So, next topic of choice....  Some of you had requested that I go more into detail about the date.  Well for those who are curious the date was fun, we went ice skating and seemed to have good conversation but the whole married/ divorce thing hung over me.  In the conversations I also found out somethings about his past that didn't sit well with me either.  Now I do understand that no one is perfect and we will all have pasts it is just making me really think.  And we haven't talked since the date so that could be another thing.  We ice skated about 3 laps around the ice rink and then walked through Wal-Mart so he could pick up dog food.  I definately think that doing something where it does not involve coffee and a movies for a first date is a great idea.  It allowed for us to get to know each other and if it would of been uncomfortable then we could of focused on the skating, lol.   Can I just say that dating stinks. When I was a little girl all I wanted was a husband and children.  I felt that the rest would fall right into place.  But here I sit, divorced, losing a boyfriend, and single again.  I have even taking it a step further and talked to God about what he wants from me and why I have to be the one to go through all of this.  I feel I am at a still moment in my life so I am trying to take it for all it is worth.  I have a Monday Night womans study at my home and we had decided to study a book named, " A Woman in Waiting".  This book has gone through the 7 different Ladies from, "A Lady of Virtue", "A Lady of Purity", and "A Lady of Reckless Abandonment"..  This book looks at the story of Ruth and her love of the Lord.  Everyone has a different journey and for me this is mine.  I am still working on my story so I can share it with woman.  God opened the door this past weekend at the Ladies Retreat for me to share.  God brought this woman to the retreat who beginning a new adventrue with her husband and God allowed my story and the story of another woman to help this woman on her journey.  God also allowed the loss of my father to teach me the mourning process so I could support another woman in her journey.  This journey is not an easy one but I can see God working through it all.  So now I pray and wait on the Lord to guide me in the next step.  I ask you all to pray for me as I seek the peace that is needed for me to step away from the hurt and heal.